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away, go to my apartment, dress as a woman, then return to my car and drive around to various public places such as car- nivals, the beach, etc. and mill around in crowds. I have never been caught. I believe my make-up, figure, choice of clothes, and feminine mannerisms I have developed protect me.

m I never use public rest rooms when so dressed, and I try to avoid personal contact with anyone. Numerous times men have attempted to "pick me up", but I ignore them. I have been tempted to let one pick me up and then surprise him with my true sex. But, I fear the victim might not be good natured about it and might give me trouble. I cannot afford to be exposed. This would damage my professional and social position. I take every precaution to avoid it and to keep my addiction to transvestism a secret.

For example; A couple of days after the wedding show I took all my female costume to my office and turned it over to my secretary to dispose of in any manner she chose. This indicated to her and the other employees that I had no love of or use for the feminine things. It appeared that I had washed my hands of the whole thing. Little did they know of the pain it gave me to part with the lovely white high heeled sandals, gown, gloves, foundation, pink dress and all. I particularly hated to see the lovely long blonde wig go back to the rental shop.

My longing to dress in female clothing was so great that I lost no time in purchasing an extensive wardrobe, which included two expensive human hair wigs, dresses, shoes, hosiery, lingerie, girdles, play and sporta items, cosmetics, jewelry, ladies wrist watch and ladies glasses, umbrella, sweaters, coats, swim suit and every other item of feminine apparel. Over a nine year period I have col- lected a large closet full of feminine things. I now have over 50 pairs of lovely shoes, most of them with 3" heels or higher.

Because I am a perfect size 16, wear size 8 women's shoes, size 10 hosiery, and other standard obtainable sizes